No matter how much we plan for future
It shock us with its great might
and  alwyas tharsh us with surprise
when we expected the least….

Irony is people only ponder for their
own ailing heart and emotions ..
and mutilate their wits and feelings..
to see the real meaning of life..

can’t  we just  ward off the
this crippled self-centered concept of life
just for a while…..
and live some moments for our
own brother and sisters……
who are dejected and dilapidated..

can’t we take out some of our moment
to love and care for them
when they need it the most
to make their moment worthwhile
till the time to come…

cant we once put together our heart
to embrace our lost brotherhood…
and  make this world…..
like a one happy family again…

can’t we Just give one try…..

where rain drops patter
on those lone green meadows…
making symphony of love
with the majestic horizon sky….

i waited for you….
staring at those silent path..
i could see nothing…
except few tumbling stone.
coming down from the hill..
slowly ..the sun went down…

and there you cames..
right from the path..
and held me close..
as if you would never let me go..

i held you closer..
like manna on my lap…
and looked into your eyes..
to feel your love..
then i kissed you there
and found my world..
wrapped around you …

i saw you blushed..
with a tint of shyness..
you cozily moved back
then pulled my hand
you dragged me in..
the home near by ..
we made love…
till the stars..
shut their eyes…

and then morning wind chimed
with mist around us..
i felt very special….
with the presence of you…
then i saw you there
down in the meadows…..
distant from my window …
gazing upon the sky..
with an adorable playful gait….
calsping your hands
right against you..

i wish ……
i could be there
right next to you….
and..
suddenly you looked back..
and waved towards me..
you called me there..
to show those “diamonds”…
around the meadows….

i waved you back..
hiding my love for you
but those lines of satiation
painted my smile ..
and the sparkle of love..
gleamed on my face..

i ran to you…
to hold you there
to feel the “diamond”…
right inside you..

my dreams came true…
what i dreamt whole life
to be with you….
forever… like that…

pang of reminiscence
vanishing in air…..
a tinge of drowsiness…..
and no one to care…

weaken body  slumbered
into a serene furor..
darkness embraced me like a
true lover…..
 
feeble limb lumbered
into a calm emptiness
setting  me free…..
from all sanity…

Last thought Like a sermon..

“I can not lose no one”

Only my last sigh to subside…..
an adieu to my beautiful suicide……

apne armaan sayad tumhen aaj begairat se lagte hoon..
kyoon na ..
kisi ke daamn men aaj phir…
kuch rang birnge sapne bekheer ayeen…

kuch lamhoon ke liye hi sahi..
apne sansoon se juda ho jayeen…
chlo aaj khud fanna ho kar..
bas thodi si khushiyaan baant ayeen…

kisi ki dabi arjoo ko aaj phir se…
apne muskaa.noo   ki hawa de ayeen…

aaj mudaattoon baad jab..
ehsaas ki mahak ne angdayyaan li ..
to aisa mahsoos hua jaise..
anjaane men koi arjoo samet laya tha main…

Na samjh paya ye kabhi …
ki apni jindagi bhool aaya tha main…..